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Dull My Senses 
01:35pm 17/04/2009
  Umm again, it's just another song I wrote. Any feedback/thoughts would be very much appreciated, comment, PM me or w/e.
As I said before, I don't like have talent in writing or anything, I just do it for my own enjoyment and as a way to deal with problems or whatever.
Plus, on this and the last one, I was only 15 when I wrote them, so please take that into account lol.
Thanks :)

Uncertainty lingers long beneath my breath,
Recycled words are getting old.
A reoccurring nightmare to my heightened conciousness.
Please dull my senses, don't allow this to break me again.
Reaching out to feel the world beneath my fingertips,
But i touch an acid doubt of sanity in my haste.
Words scroll past so quickly it seems, never enough time to take the world in.

I'll fight this, i'll tell myself i can let go,
That i'm just like them.
I'll try to defend it, but always surrender,
I'm not the same.
Please dull my senses, don't allow this to break me again.

The world is a globe of which i am outside,
For this never ending count.
Each day is a new chance to waste my life's hours
attempting to tame my ways
I'll even this out if it takes me all night,
I just can't let it lay.

I'll fight this, i'll tell myself i can let go,
That i'm just like them.
I'll try to defend it, but always surrender,
I'm not the same.
Please dull my senses, don't allow this to break me again..

How many times have i said this,
How long until this feels right?
Oh, Baby, please don't make me nervous,
Oh, Baby, don't touch me tonight.

I'll fight this, i'll tell myself i can let go,
Cos i'm just like them.
I'll try to defend it, but always surrender,
I'm just not the same.
Please dull my senses, don't allow this to break me again.
Please tell my loved ones i'm taking this easily, i'll pretend.
Please dull my senses, don't allow this to break me again.
Oh, please dull my senses don't allow this to break me again.
Through My Eyes 
01:27pm 17/04/2009
  Umm, okay, I'm kinda new to this so bare with me! It's a song I wrote, I'm not sure whether to use it for my band or not.
Any feedback or oppinions would be awesome, thank you. It's not very good tbh, but I just write for pleasure.
Thank you :)

so he lays in that coffin
as dead as her eyes
just a tourist attraction
for each eye the cries
this is what he would've wanted
no, this is your lies,
even in death he is living
this pretentious life

when each scale evens out
with each birth, dies another
when it finally affects you
in one way or other
do you feel any better?
or is this another
line that you didn't write?

but forever they'll tell us
we don't need the torch
the crutch is a burden
our strength reinforced
oh, but just once i want it
i need to be stabalized

Come watch life through my eyes

well there'll be someone who's as broken as you
and he'll always try fixing your heart, torn in two
but to make his mark left
is this what he should do?
Perhaps he should break your heart too

cos forever we'll find these purpose built lovers
who seek their soul partners just to break each other
forever and never is a promise i'll take
if you promise to laugh, watch me break

cos forever they'll tell us
we don't need the torch
the crutch is a burden
our strength reinforced
but just this once i want it
i want to be stabalized

come watch life through my eyes

so now i can tell you what we aim to acheive
if a life is a prison then why not break free?
but what lies beyond is far beyond me
so how do we know that it's free?

just keep telling yourself
this is just what you wanted
a scar to display
and a broken heart flaunted
a glamourous suicide
glitters and taunts you
a beautiful way to die?

or is this all just a lie?

well come watch life through my eyes

you'll destroy all for which that you fight.
My Poem 
09:50pm 13/04/2009
  This is my original first poem so please don't steal it!!

I don’t know why I came back here, to the scene of your crime

Tears running down my face, my hands covered in your blood

The rushing thoughts, telling me to stop so I ask them  “stop what?”

The world is black, just like my heart

I never understood myself,

So I ask you have I gone too far?

And As I stop and stare, and look at your lifeless body, I wonder “how did you die?”


Now I see, now I understand

It’s not you, it’s me

I was gone before you left, now I’m haunting the one last piece of me,

Then I wonder “what has gone?”, “what is missing?”


Then I realise the only thing left of me is death,

The only thing missing is, you.... 

09:31pm 05/04/2009
  I'm new to this... so thanks and nice to meet you guys!!!  
04:07pm 05/04/2009
mood: accomplished
1. What is your name? - Call me Mike for now. I'm sure you'll think of other names for me later.
2. Where are you from? - Kansas City, MO
3. How old are you? - 33
4. Why did you want to join? - Looking for something to do...something that matched my random poetic thoughts.
5. What kind of stuff do you like to write about? - Whatever happens to be on my mind.
6. How did you find this community? - I did a search for "poetic thoughts" and guess what appeared.
7. What kind of music do you like? - It would be easier to tell you what I hate; Top 40.
9. favorite groups/bands/singers? - Don't have any.
10. Do you know of any other communities if so what are their names? - None. You are my first.
James Blunt 
08:57am 09/03/2006
mood: cheerful
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
deep within 
11:43am 22/02/2006
mood: creative
so i wrote this. hope u like it, please dont steal it
"Deep Within"

If you look beyond my scars
Far, far away
You might just see the happy girl
Thats starting to fade away
If you look back to the past
And notice who i was
You'll notice that now who i am
Isn't really me
If you look beyond my smile
Beyond my fading face
If you look beyond the pain
You might just feel the same
If you look past my tears
And past the fallen blood
If you pass all of that
Then you will have fallen
If you fall where i have fell
Then you might notice too
This life i live is nothing
But a show i put on for you
If you look past my fake smile
Past my fake outside
Then you will see whats wrong
Deep deep inside
If you do down deep enough
You might get to my heart
If you see the crack in it
You'll know what fell apart
If you travel through my blood
And look up at my skin
You might just see the scars
That show up deep within
If you look beyond the scars
Beyond my fading arm
Maybe then and only then
Will you finally understand
the reasons that i hide myself
Under this white sweatband
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new member - first poem posted 
10:19pm 21/08/2005
mood: Roland??
As i sit , thinking of you
My direct attention ; our relationship so new
So fast, but loved- my object of one's affections
Truelove may we have, last unchangingly

Vacant my spirit goes, with out your embrace...to feel your faint breeze of breath on my neck .
Air I go, my Romeo ... I fly to you... my badge of loyalty I give
Never will I say I do not love thou... I worry of your badge of loyalty
Will you fly... fly ever so fast to reach the Juliet of Thain's eye

Fair sea will you not let us past? For our hearts conform into one: Make of our hearts one heart.
Day after day past...our love growing stronger...further we must grow

I hold myself for you,at this point... you are my only love ; you have my love, loyalty, and friendship.
01:12pm 09/05/2005
mood: creative
Existing to breathe,
breathing to be,
being to know,
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M.B 05-09-05

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I copied this for Frog.. :) 
06:48pm 11/04/2005
mood: sleepy






This is cute................. 
06:19pm 11/04/2005
mood: high
> > Where do pets come from?
> >
> > A newly discovered chapter in the Book of Genesis has provided
> > the answer to "Where do pets come from?"
> >
> > Adam and Eve said, "Lord, when we were in the garden, you walked
> > with us every day. Now we do not see you any more. We are lonesome
> > here, and it is difficult for us to remember how much you love us."
> >
> > And God said, "No problem! I will create a companion for you that will
> > be with you forever and who will be a reflection of my love for you, so
> > that you will love me even when you cannot see me. Regardless of how
> > selfish or childish or unlovable you may be, this new companion will
> > accept you as you are and will love you as I do, in spite of
> >
> > And God created a new animal to be a companion for Adam and Eve.
> > And it was a good animal.
> > And God was pleased.
> >
> > And the new animal was pleased to be with Adam and Eve and he
> > wagged his tail.
> >
> > And Adam said, "Lord, I have already named all the animals in the
> > Kingdom and I cannot think of a name for this new animal."
> >
> > And God said, "No problem. Because I have created this new animal
> > to be a reflection of my love for you, his name will be a reflection
> > my own name, and you will call him DOG."
> >
> > And Dog lived with Adam and Eve and was a companion to them
> > and loved them.
> >
> > And they were comforted.
> >
> > And God was pleased.
> >
> > And Dog was content and wagged his tail.
> >
> > After a while, it came to pass that an angel came to the Lord and
> > "Lord, Adam and Eve have become filled with pride. They strut and
> > like peacocks and they believe they are worthy of adoration. Dog has
> > indeed
> > taught them that they are loved, but perhaps too well."
> >
> > And God said, "No problem! I will create for them a companion who will
> > be with them forever and who will see them as they are. The companion
> > will remind them of their limitations, so they will know that they are
> > not
> > always worthy of adoration."
> >
> > And God created CAT to be a companion to Adam and Eve.
> >
> > And Cat would not obey them.
> >
> > And when Adam and Eve gazed into Cat's eyes, they were reminded that
> > they were not the supreme beings.
> >
> > And Adam and Eve learned humility.
> >
> > And they were greatly improved.
> >
> > And God was pleased.
> >
> > And Dog was happy.
> >
> > And Cat didn't give a shit one way or the other.
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Saying I love u. Sent from Solomom 
08:56am 08/04/2005
I Love You

Te Amo

Je T'aime

lch Liebe Dich

Ai Shite Imasu

Ti Amo

Wo Ai Ni

Jag Alskar

Alabama, Arkansas, Kansas, Oklahoma, Texas, North
Carolina, South Carolina, Georgia, Tennessee, Idaho,
Missouri, Mississippi, Montana, Louisiana, Virginia,
West Virginia, Kentucky, parts of Florida, Utah

Nice Ass. Get in the truck.
For The Pope. Sent From My Dad. 
07:39pm 02/04/2005
mood: accomplished
(Lord's Prayer)
Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name; thy kingdom come;
thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread;
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen

Pater noster
Pater noster qui est in caelis,
sanctificetur nomen tuum;
adveniat regnum tuum;
fiat voluntas tua,
sicut in caelo et in terra.
Panem nostrum cotidianum da nobis hodie,
et dimitte nobis debita nostra,
sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris;
et ne nos inducas in tentationem
Sed libera nos a malo. Amen
Sent from solomom 
09:54pm 01/04/2005
mood: groggy
I grew up in the fifties with a practical parent -- a mother, God love her, who washed aluminum foil after she cooked in it, then reused it. She was the original recycle queen, before they had a name for it...

A father who was happier getting old shoes fixed
than buying new ones.

Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their
best friends lived barely a wave away. I can see them now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a house dress, lawn mower in one hand, dishtowel in the other.
It was! the time for fixing things -- a curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven door, the hem in a dress. Things we keep.

It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy.

All that re-fixing, reheating, renewing, I wanted just once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence.
Throwing things away meant you knew there'd always be more.

But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's
night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any 'more.'

Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up
and goes away...never to return.
So...while we have it...it's best we love it.....and care for it....and fix it when it's broken.....and heal it when it's sick.

This is true.....for marriage.....and old cars.....and children with bad report cards.....and dogs with bad hips.....and aging parents.....and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.

Some other things we keep.

Like a best friend that moved away -- or -- a classmate we grew up with.

There are just some things that make life important,
like people we know who are special.....and so, we keep them close!

I received this from someone who thinks I am a 'keeper' so I've sent it to the people I think of in the same way.
Now it's your turn to send this to those people that are "keepers" in your life.
Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.........
I love this, My Dad sent it to me.. 
12:38pm 31/03/2005
mood: hungry
Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
11. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
Wally World 
08:02am 23/03/2005
mood: calm
Fifteen things to do at Wal-Mart while your spouse/partner is taking
their sweet time shopping.

1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in peoples carts when
they aren't looking.

2. Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute

3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms.

4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone, 'Code 3'
in housewares..... and see what happens.

5. Go to the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on lay away.

6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.

7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers
you'll invite them in if they'll bring pillows from the bedding

8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask 'Why
can't you people just leave me alone?'

9. Look right into the security camera; use it as a mirror, and pick
your nose.

10. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he
knows where the anti-depressants are.

11. Dart around the store suspiciously loudly humming the "Mission
Impossible" theme.

12. In the auto department, practice your "Madonna look" using different
size funnels.

13. Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through, say "PICK

14. When an announcement comes over the loud speaker, assume the fetal
position and scream "NO! NO! It's those voices again!!!!"

15. Go into a fitting room and shut the door and wait a while; and,
then, yell, very loudly, "There is no toilet paper in here!"
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Happy St. Patrick's Day 
04:37pm 17/03/2005
mood: sick
Philippians 4:13.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called
Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights
called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called
Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called
Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will
make it to a place called Success.
Pass it on to ten people whom you
want to see blessed.
So true, don't want to go there.. 
01:29pm 24/02/2005
mood: gloomy
I destroy homes, I tear families apart, I'll take your kids and thats only the start, I am more valuable than diamonds and more precious than gold.
The sorrow I'll bring you is a sight to behold, If you need me, I'm easily found, I live all around you in schools and towns, I live down the street or maybe nextdoor. I live with the rich and even the poor, I am made in a lab, but like you think, I can even be made at your kitchen sink, in your childs closet or even in the woods.
If this scares you to death than it certainly should, I have many names, but the one I like best is the most common name just good ole Crystal Meth.
My Power is awesome, just try me and see, But when you do you'll never be free, Maybe once I'll let you go, Do me twice I'll have your soul! When you are mine you will steal and lie, whattever it takes just to get high! The crimes you'll commit under my illusional charm will be worth it, when I'm pumping thru your arms.
You'll lie to your mom and steal from your dad, as you see them cry you won't even be sad, you'll forget how you were raised and the morals you once had, Now I'm your conscience and I'll show you the way, I take kids from parents, and parents from kids, take people from God, and seperate friends! I'll have it all your looks and pride, I'll be the loyal one right by your side!!!
It'll be all gone, your family and home, But dont worry babe your not alone, I'll take and take till theres nothing left, when I am thru you won't want to live! Everyone will warn you, this isn't a game, give me some time I'll drive you insane, I'll ravage your body and control your mind, take your soul, you are completly mine!!!
Nightmares in bed and voices in your head, shakes, sweats, and illusions you'll see, I want you to know they are all gifts from Me!!! But by then its to late, you'll know in your heart, your mine now and we will never be apart, Regret trying me? They all do, remember anytime you want to come see me, I'll be here waiting for you, You knew this would happen, how many times you were told, but you challenged my power trying to be bold, could have said NO and walked away. If asked again what would you say?
My power is AWESOME, I told you before, I'll take any female and her a dope whore, Now that we've met what will you do? I'll give you a chance the answers on you? I'll show you more misery than one life should endure, just reach for my hand, while I lead you thru HELL!!!
A Poem from the Newspaper 
11:50am 16/02/2005
mood: hopeful
Life has been perceived to be
like a river flowing to the sea.

A river that may gently flow
and troubled waters seldon know.

Or it may become a ravaged scene
when God and Nature intervene.

And so it is with life some say,
as lives are lived from day to day.

Others have likened life to be
a road or path we travel free,
where a choice of trails can often make
a difference by which one we take.

And so, when trobled times prevail,
life is like a mountain trail
where steeper slopes much steeper upward go;
the easy roads lie far below.

Perhaps upon this mountain slope
we feel despair; we lose all hope.
When we reach a chasm of despair,
the bridge across is like a prayer.
She had to die!!!! 
03:31am 15/02/2005
  I can hear her.....

whispering to me to turn myself in do the right thing.....

she has to die

her screams still ringing in my ears....

she has to die

her blood stains my favorite shirt....
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